অজস্র নীল বেদনার নোলাজলে ডুবে আছি পুরোটই,সময়টা আজ আর একদমই কথা শোনেনা।

এতোটাই ব্যস্ত আমার প্রহরগুলো,

তবুও একাকীত্বটা একদমই পিছু ছারেনা।
জানিতো জীবন চলে যাবে তারই নিজস্ব প্রথাতে,

সবারি মতো তুমিও যাবে ত্রই একদিন আমায় ভুলে,

একটিবার যদি নিজস্ব কষ্টের দেয়ালটা ভেজ্ঞে একটু তাকাতে আমারই দুটি চোখে,

জানতে কতোট কষ্টে আছি আজ আমি শুধু তোমায় ভালবেসে…

  
Trusting someone with your heart is the worst thing in the world. Life is suppose to be so much easier when you have a good heart. Maybe I am poor, I am not that pretty,I am not much educated. But I know for a fact I have a good heart. And no matter how much or how many times it got broken I tell myself my better days will come. One day I will find my true happiness. 

No matter how much I try, how many ways I try it’s just never enough. I can’t please anyone, always every single of my loved ones finds fault in me. It’s sad that I see people with the darkest soul. But they have almost everything in life. They are indeed the happiest. I am not saying that I am a saint or something. But in my heart I know that I tried my best to stay good in every single aspect of my life. Yet I am always in pain and lots of tears. 

I thought one person’s life can’t be that bad, my good times will come soon. I am at my 30s and still waiting. I deserve better days, I deserve my true love. 

I m just too tired of waiting, someone who will truly understand me. I was so happy thinking I finally found my miracle. But forgot that my happiness never stays, it always left me with a broken soul. I m surprised I m still hopeful after all the miseries in my life. But now a days I don’t have it in me anymore to fight for my happiness. I am loosing hope, completely loosing faith in true love, feeling too old to live this life.