What you do when life brings you at the same situation after 16 years , obviously with a different person. Do you follow your heart or just do what you always do.Always thinking what’s best for your loved ones! It’s not fair just not fair , why you are at the same situation after a decade!
What is it Allah(stw) wants you to learn from this! He knows me better then anyone. I will sacrifice it all, if it is best for my loved ones. Never thinking twice. But the problem is, it didn’t bring any good after I took that decision , it brought only myseries for the last decade. How can I be sure this time it will not have the same impact in life ! Do I have what it takes to go through this all over again ! Is my heart strong enough to bear this horrible sharpening pain I felt when I had to took that decision at the age if 16!
After that horrifying experience being married to a shychopath for 15 years, my punishment wasn’t enough! I agree I took the wrong decision but my Allah(stw) knows my intention was for only the best for my loved ones. I paid my fees for that mistake. Why do I end up on that exact same position again ! That’s just not fair , what I suppose to do now in my 30s!
They say you suppose to learn from your mistakes, so you never make the same mistakes again . But when it’s best for your loved ones, I know I will make the same mistake over and over again ..
Please Allah(stw) help me, show me the right path, because you know me . I will go to that self distract mode if I have to , if it’s best for my loved ones..